Aren’t we all just wandering souls?

A change in company can really give a person a realisation. A realisation that can make us doubt ourselves. In recent years, I have realised how drastically the people we meet can differ. Some are bold and confident, some are demure and quiet.

Growing up, I was always surrounded by such lively personalities and found comfort in people’s trust and positivity. Doubt was not something that crossed my mind often. Yet, in recent years I have come to realise that not everyone will share their thoughts and opinions as easily. Trust is definitely something you have to earn. But what if it is never given?

I suppose I am writing this purely for the fact that I feel quite lost in my thoughts.. I’ve never been one not to be trusted and I like to think that I am a caring person that would respect anyones opinions, no matter what. Sometimes, others just don’t like to let people in, which is fine, obviously. I don’t really know how to explain what I am trying to say, but, It gets to the point when a person can feel rejected by this sort of thing.  Shut out, even. This post is basically just me thinking out loud…We are all just animals living on this earth and we need to support each other. It makes me sad to think that if someone was unhappy or angry, they would choose to be silent than to reach out to the people who love them.

My goodness this post is extremely soppy today! I’m going to go back to my kitchen to bake now, bye.




The puzzle in my heart

Recently, my days are full of procrastination and struggle to inspire myself in the same way that I was able to in the last few years. This deeply worries me but also makes me feel strangely at ease as I feel that my life is wanting to take a turn and focus on other things for the better. My priorities have changed. my heart feels like a puzzle that needs to be reassembled in a different order as the previous pieces did not quite fit.

What I am really trying to say is that, I am older now and what once was expected of my future by people surrounding me is not what I now expect for myself. I have come to terms with what I really want. I am grateful for the encouragement and I have learned so much. I am not going to stop pursuing the previous ideas and skills as it is a hobby that I will love forever and it warms my heart with all the memories of failure then accomplishment which proves that anything is possible. But, there is another hobby which I feel lets me express my inner self and makes me feel warm and bubbly inside.I just worry that others will not understand my sudden change of heart. but it has been hiding inside me for years now and I’m sure it’s the right thing for me. This is what I want. This is the new path that I choose to follow.